when I seem to forget
how sounds become words or even sentences
No, I don't speak anymore and what could I say,
since no-one is there and there is nothing to say
So, I prefer to lie in darkest silence alone
listening to the lack of light,
or sound, or someone to talk to,
for something to share - but there is no hope and no-one is there
No, no, no - not one living soul
and there is nothing (left) to say,
in darkness I lie all alone by myself,
sleeping most of the time to endure the pain
I am not breathing a word,
I haven't spoken for weeks
and yet the mistress inside me is (secretly) straining her ears
But there is no-one, and it seems to me at times
that with every passing hour another word is leaving my mind
I am the mistress of loneliness,
my court is deserted but I do not care
The presence of people is ugly and cold
and something I can neither watch nor bear
So, I prefer to lie in darkness silence alone,
listening to the lack of light,
or sound, or someone to talk to, for something to share -
but there is no hope and no-one is there
No, I don't speak anymore and what should I say,
since no- one is there and there is nothing to say?
All is oppressive, alles ist schwer, there is no-one and NO-ONE IS THERE